Today’s score – 37%

Slow and steady wins the race - the story of the hare and the tortoise has always connected with me. My counselling is still very useful.  I’m glad that I took the leap and thankful that the doctor I’ve been talking with is intuitive. She knows exactly what to query and contributes with the psychological science.  

In a recent session she’d set me an aim. I flunked it, in an acceptable way, as it became a learning project. She had identified that my self-esteem was low and that I was partly responsible for that.  By holding myself safe and slightly out of reach, I was and I am keeping myself in a frozen landscape. Yes it’s safest but it also denies me any scope to grow or to take a risk which might pay off.  

I went with the challenge, aimed far too high and the world in my vicinity crashed for a couple of days. But it was all a lesson to me.  I repeatedly bite off far more than I can chew.  If I don’t succeed the first time I stamp it “failed”. If I feel exposed I run.  I avoid things that might require connecting for more than ten minutes.  

The jigsaw is still forming and I need to be in it, not looking at it. Slow and steady gets us there. I only need to keep momentum and aim again.

Love from 

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member