Today’s score – 28% 

Sometimes I talk of depression feeling like wearing an oversized iron cloak. You can function but everything is harder wearing it, even our vision is distorted because of watching where we step as we manhandle it.  

In life, I often wear coats and jackets and I think it’s a safety net. I can look capable and coping, if nobody can see what’s underneath.  

In counselling, I’m learning that I have been going through all aspects of life wearing that cloak or coat. It’s easy to cover problems and feelings. Present only what I choose. Hide the rest. It has worked really well for me so far. Until now.  

Now I need to learn how to shed it and find a new way. That’s very tough. Squaring up to black and white truths I have not found easy. But the counsellor is wonderful. She has explained it well and there is no rush, we go only at whatever pace the talking takes. 

She also gave me some information on using EMDR to re-process some ancient stuff which has been lurking and needs exorcised. I’m very interested to learn more about it even though I’m a little daunted at the thought of doing it.  

Onwards we go. Notes from the room. Nothing huge but that’s where I am. How are you? 

Love from

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member