How much load do you think you are carrying? Out of ten? This might be a good starting point for a new year.

I reduced some load this Christmas hoping it would help me to avoid the January skids. What I failed to factor in was that I reduced the load because there was extra load elsewhere. One cancelled out the other and I find myself back in the January skids, admittedly much less skiddy than other years. So there is progress!

A common theme has shown itself to me. I commit far too much of me to others. I can’t stop. So that needs to stop. The phrase “the definition of madness is doing the same thing over and over and expecting a different result” applies here.

Running parallel is counselling. As I tend to process things slowly, I feel an awful lot of what I talked over in counselling last year hasn’t sifted through yet. So I’m pressing pause on counselling for now. Put simply, I need everything - every single thing - to slow down. Why keep the treadmill going when I need to be still for a bit.

If we actively listen to our bodies and minds then we have the best chance of good health. Nothing big here, simply permission from myself to put the brakes on. I’m writing with big, wet flakes of snow falling onto the slanty window beside me. There is my sign. Time to sit and stare.

Love from 

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member