Today’s score – 33%

The first session back after an almost month-long break was slightly dreaded by me. It needn’t have been. It was a gentle catching up session. I’d had a couple of big hurdles to jump in the time since, and the previous session had been spent shoring me up for that. We also mapped a loose plan for the next two sessions. 

We chatted about the potential to use EMDR (which is mostly for going into the past and reprocessing and refiling), or whether talking things through has been ‘enough’.  Whether the plan might feel a better fit to go forwards with a future based approach. I felt that I had a foot in both camps and, luckily, we can go forward this way.  We’ll start the next session with a forwards and future set of eyes and, if it feels that my legs are tangled in reeds, holding me back, we’ll try EMDR to see where that takes us.   

I noticed today that I felt a bit more stable. A bit like I was not being whipped around on the roundabout when I wanted to get off. So that is good progress. I’m not saying that I felt fully in charge of my own thoughts and feelings again, but that I was not a bystander any more. May that essence grow. 

I’d also like to say thank you for your company since I hit the skids. I don’t always have the head to reply but I read, and take on board, everything.

Love from 

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member