Todays score - 14%

Since I hit the skids around April, I’ve been trying to write weekly again (amongst other things) as a way to give me a beat, a rhythm, some pendulum swing centred around stabilising my mood. It’s no bad thing to make it walk beside us rather than let it sit on us.  

Each week, I’ve included my score. It’s relative only to me but I hoped it would serve good purpose for lots of reasons. Let people see it’s not to be feared. Just observed.  

Recently Lex blew my mind slightly when, in one of his blogs, he suggested that we might have some control and influence over each card making up our scores. I’d only ever thought of them as individual cards and the overall score as a snapshot of mood. Markers from which we might give ourselves more understanding and compassion.

There are not many of the cards that I feel I can currently influence. My head isn’t in the right place yet. But the ‘proud’ card can be worked. I can move that for sure between the 0, 1, 2 or 3 score options that I’m given. It depends on the achievement I want to bank. Overall I am not feeling proud, but:

• - I can hold my tongue when my youngest daughter presses my buttons and feel proud of being patient.
• - I can workout and be proud because I was vehemently against doing it.
• - I can have a cuppa outside, do a small weed and sweep of the path, regulate my system, and feel proud.

We can manipulate things to help ourselves increase that score. And each tiny effort rolls on to another.  

Have you thought of approaching the cards this way? Am the only one who considered them as little mirrors instead of conscientious worker bees?

Love from

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member