Today’s score – 37%

Recently in counselling I learned that I have been an all or nothing judge. I hadn’t realised I was judgemental. But I have been. With myself. I have judged myself to have failed over and over again, and what a damaging thing that is when it is nailed in tight.

So I am now trying to view things with a softer set of eyes. Instead of being cross at my ‘failure’ to lift weights over the last two months (something which helps me physically and mentally), I have had a pause to deal with life. Instead of seeing all the projects I’d like to start, or which have been queueing for many a long year, I have been unable to reach them because I have not had the lifestyle to be able to. Certainly not by myself and raising three humans.

This is going to take practice. This is going to trip me up! But if I want to feel better then almost every way I currently view myself has to change.

I have made the date for weights. Next week, and it’s booked in so there can be no backtracking. I am strong enough to do this and I will be stronger. That looks ridiculous to me in type but I am leaving it in. If you are currently beating yourself up for your ‘failures’, do pause and have a think at how you might look at that again. Go softly friends.

Love from 

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member