I’m having a little break from counselling and I’ve made the next appointment for January. I know I’m far from finished but I needed the break from thinking and talking so much about myself. I was in danger of feeling lost. The break has already brought some things up which I will eagerly take in next time. One of them is about whether I’m being manipulated by certain people. 

I’ve found it a hard one to identify. I’ve often seen it as people caring about me but when you start to see more clearly, and suspect you might have been pointed in a direction somebody else wanted you to take, it can be a little galling.  

Once doubt shows up, it’s tricky to put back into a box. Uncomfortable as it is, I’d still rather feel it, identify it, and file it in the right place than be blind.  

It has been six months of excavating and it’s emotionally tiring. But I’m still glad to have started it as a means to feeling better in the long term. I used to dream about being an archaeologist and maybe this is as close as I get. I hoped more for Indiana Jones himself but improving myself is surely second best!

That’s my tuppence worth for today. I hope you all have a good Saturday, embracing the start of the Christmas season if you enjoy it, or turning the other cheek (like me) if you don’t!

Love from 

The room above the garage 

A Moodscope member