CONTENT WARNING: SUICIDE

I’m sorry — this isn’t an uplifting post. It’s a very sad one.

Some of you may remember that last year, my lovely sister suffered a serious stroke Jane and I were able to visit her in hospital. As many of you also know, dear Jane then became very ill herself and sadly died on 2nd November 2024.

Since then, my brother John and I have made sure to visit Sarah and her wife each month. Sarah joined us last May to celebrate Jane’s life, surrounded by more than fifty friends.

In early September, she spent a week here with me — the longest time we’d shared since her university days at Cambridge. There are seventeen years between us, and during that week she asked if I was really her mother. She said she wished it were true, and that our parents, who were difficult people, were actually her grandparents. I wept and told her I wished it too — but I was only her big sister.

Yesterday, my lovely sister Sarah took her own life. I am heartbroken. The emergency services tried so hard to revive her, but they could not.

Next week would have been her birthday. I had already sent her card and a cake to be delivered on the day.

I don’t know where to go from here. Please, dear Moodscopers, if you can, share your kind and comforting words. I need them more than ever.

CMM

A Moodscope member