Today’s score – 12%

When happy arrived, I didn’t notice. I just ran with it. Then suddenly slow motion kicked in, including the morphed music, and I checked myself. I wasn’t meant to feel happy. I am depressed. Depressed needs to have the spotlight fully, maybe even with lasers, and then maybe it will skulk off to the wings and remove its stage make up. But happy popped in unexpectedly. And I made a big space and said “come away in” with a smile.

Happy didn’t stay. It was like an Oscar winner at the Vanity Fair party – it glanced the room, took the limelight and left on a cloud of bubbles. (And somehow guilt arrived like toilet paper stuck to a shoe, followed by sorrow.)  But happy did pop in. 

And that is how I had it confirmed that I am not dead inside. Wonders never cease.

Check around today just in case a tiny bit of happy is in there and if, like me, you need to make a little space and let it out for a bit. We can still be depressed and allow a little happiness too. And at some point the seesaw will switch. It will. 

I’ve just re-read this and Eeyore himself could have written it I think. 

Love from 

The room above the garage

A Moodscope member